STORM AT “ANOREXIA” COMMENTS

KATE Moss was blasted as brainless last night after sge uggested it was better to be skinny than to eat.

SEE FULL STORY AT http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/showbiz/bizarre/2735440/Kate-Moss-reveals-her-life-motto-Nothing-tastes-as-good-as-skinny-feels.html

I couldn’t do it. After my post yesterday I have now got to the point where I couldn’t get out of the bed and face the day. Maybe im sick? I dont know but all I know is I have a million things to be doing and I cant do them because I feel like it I go outside today, something is going to happen, something bad and I am not moving incase that happens. Sad or what!!! I need to snap out of this and soon!!!

Its becoming annoying now. I am seriously wary of everything and everyone. I mean I have always been wary of people but I am one of those people that tries to get to know someone before judging them. But now I dont even think about anything like that, I am seeing bad in everything and everyone and I have no idea why. I am getting to the point now that everything seems to be going wrong and whatever I try to do to stop it, it continues to get worse, like I have made it worse. I know that its possible its not my fault its getting worse but it seems that everything I am touching is turning sour on me which is severly depressing me.

I wake up everyday feeling sick, like I should just stay where I am and not move then I wont be affected by anything or anyone. I am trying to push through it and get out of bed and go to work everyday but each day that goes by, its getting worse and worse and it is depressing me more and more.

I need to vent, I am soooo pissed off its quite unreal. I have felt this way before but that was way before my meds actually started working and I was feeling like this all the time but something has come over me today. I have realised that ALOT of people in my life are actually two faced people, they use me and they walk all over me and I am so sick of it! I am trying to find a way of dealing with this without freaking out or actually losing it at people. I need to learn to stand on my own two feet and not get drowned in my feelings, but its hard ya know? Just struggling is all and I needed to vent xxx

Virgo starsign for this week, lets see what I have in store huh?! :

“If you feel like your finances have gone into a backwards cycle, relax. Mercury is reversing in your money zone so cash could be confusing. However, you are under enough stress as it is and worrying about thing won’t help. Just cross your fingers and hope for the best. You could yet get lucky”

Hummmmmm ok then! Well I have no money but no-one does at the moment right?! Shit happens, its how we deal with it that matters.

TS

So, I have decided that I need some time away, jsut a few days is all so I am now going to Amsterdam on Friday!!! I cannot wait! I haev doubled this up as a birthday celebration as I will be turning 24 on the 18th of this month!! wooo

I can honestly say that I never thought I would make it to 24, with all the crap in my life etc, I honestly thought that the anorexia, mental illness or me would have killed me by now. I have put my body through alot, through torture so for me, 24 is a milestone and it should be celebrated. So me, and 5 others are off to Amsterdam to have a long weekend of crazy fun and sightseeing, might even pop to Anne Frank’s house and have a nosey around, you never know, I might even learn something.

Anywho, guys, I know you are out there and I know you are reading but I hope you are acting too, I am living proof that even though shit happens and continues to happen, you can get through it and come out the other side. YOU CAN make it through another year, another 5, you can make it. please remember that, I know its hard, I understand the way you are feeling and I am always always here for you all. Just know that when you think that no-one loves you or wants you around……. I LOVE YOU AND I WANT YOU AROUND.

Each and every one of you are in my head and heart, always will be, nothing can change that.

I miss you all

Loves you

twistedSISTER

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So,

I lost the baby, at 12 weeks. To be honest with you, I wasn’t really sure it would last, my body is not strong enough yet and we weren’t trying to get pregnant, it just happened, it was an accident, although I was so happy when I found out!
I am not stong enough, my body is not strong enough and neither is my mind.

So, even though this news is a massive blow for me, maybe it happened for a reason? I honestly don’t know. I feel numb at the moment and just really tired so I am just taking each day as it comes and when my body is ready, I am sure I will be a mother one day, that just isnt today.

TS
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This article came from Reveal Magazine, and I just had to put it out there for you all to see!!! How can people possibly say that the media plays no part in disordered eating? Here is proof that pictures of skinny stars are making girls and boys alike feel like they need to be better which leads them needing to be thinner!

Rachael Johnston’s fixation on a photo of Victoria Beckham nearly killed her. Here, she tells REVEAL how she finally beat her four- year battle with Anorexia.

Looking at the pictures taken two weeks ago on my 18th birthday, I can barely believe the happy, relaxed girl beaming away in the pretty red dress is me. Just six months ago, I’d have been horrified that the size 10 frock i’d picked out in New look for the occasion fitted like a dream. Back then, still firmly in the grip of anorexia nervosa, even size six clothes swamped my frame, and I was looking to a very different photograph for encouragement.

The shot (in magazine has photo of Victoria Beckham in white dress with no straps and very short showing off her legs and collarbones) of Victoria Beckham was my “thinspiration”. Whenever my resolve weakened, or doctors tried to persuade me to eat, I’d stare at if for hours – picturing my body with those jutting collarbones and thin limbs.

I’m not saying for a second that Victoria has ever suffered from an eating disorder, and i’m sure she’d be horrified if she knew pictures of her had spurred me to carry on starving myself. But for more than four years, I kept the picture, with my own face stuck over hers, hidden inside my wardrobe and then in my hospital locker – a reminder that if I ever wanted my body to be as skinny as hers, Anorexia was too powerful an ally to let go.

It all began with a New Year’s resolution in 2005 to get slim. At 8st 7lb, I wasn’t fat, but I was still targeted by bullies at schoolf for being overweight. My goal was simple – I wanted to be skeletal, and disappear from their sights. Teachers first noticed my eating habits had changed on a school trip to Belgium that year, when I got through each day on just a KitKat and some juice. When I got back, my mum, lynne, panicked and started weighing me weekly to see if I was losing weight. I was, rapidly, so she took me to the GP. I fobbed her off by telling her how much the death of my freat-gran and the pressure of GCSE’s was affecting me, but my eating habits became more irregular.

I stuck to 800 calories a day, sucking ice cubes and chewing gum to suppress my appetite. My weight fell dangerously low, to 6st 7lb, but it was just enough to keep me out of hospital. I was exhauted, but I fell in love with feeling hungry, fasting for days at a time and doing 1,000 sit-ups alone in my room to lose as much weight as possible.

I began visiting pro-anorexic websites, where other girls swapped tips on the best “thinspiration” pictures, or how to make yourself sick after meals. After one vomiting sessions, Dad found me unconscious on the bathroom floor, and called an ambulance. I was taken to Warrington Hospital, where I stayed for three months after mum refused to take me home. I know now she was just desperate for me to get better, but I screamed as she walked away, and I was already too good at being anorexic to gain weight.

I stuffed meals into shampoo bottles, and refused to let even water pass my lips. Doctors resorted to feeding me through a nasal tube into my stomach. Eventually, I was sent home to be treated as an outpatient but 12-day fast ended with me being rushed into hospital, weighing 5st 13lbs and wearing clothes for an 11-year old. Somehow, in between all the purging and starving, I took and passed 12 GCSEs in hospital, before spending 18 months in an eating disorder unit, where I gained 22lbs. I was so disgusted with myself that, for days after I was discharged in May 2008, I took a paracetamol overdoes. I wound back in the unit until January, but again, when I was released, I made two more impulsive attempts at overdosing, which very nearly succeeded.

That was my lowest point. I ended up on an adult mental health ward, where I’d lie awake listening to patients’ screams. I knew I didnt want this to be my future, but I struggled to make real changes until, in May, I was given overnight leave to attend my sixth form cllege’s year photo. Seeing my friends getting ready for university and loving life, I saw how badly I’d fallen behind. That night I went home and poured my heart out to mum, promising to gain weight and get better.

That’s what I’m doing now. I still have moments when I struggle with food, and, at 7st, I’m still 12lb shy of my target weight, but i’ve taken down the picture of Posh, and I’m taking it one day at a time. I attend a Liverpool support group my mum now works for, and they’ve organised an eating disorder awareness conference next month to spread the message that they can be beaten.

Until now, my own disorder has been a secret, but i’ve decided to speak out so that other sufferers realise help is out there, if they can find the strength to ask for it. When anorexia has been your only friend for so long, breaking free seems like a terrifying step, but its one i’m so glad I made.

Next month, I’m going to start studying for my A-levels, and for the first time in five years, I feel like i’ve got my future back.

THE EATING DISORDER CONFERENCE TAKE PLACE AT LIVERPOOL JOHN MOORES UNIVERSITY ON 7TH SEPTEMBER. FOR DETAILS, VISIT b-eat.co.uk or ljmu.ac.uk

TS

Found this on yahoo today, take a look:

If you’re dining with overweight friends, beware. Skip related content
A small U.S. study had found that overweight children and teenagers eat more when they have a snack with an overweight friend rather than with a thinner peer.

Researchers from the State University of New York at Buffalo studied a group of 9- to 15-year-olds and found that all youngsters, regardless of their weight, tended to eat more when they snacked with a friend rather than a peer they did not know.

But the biggest calorie intakes were seen when an overweight child snacked with an overweight friend.

The findings, reported in the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition, highlight the role of friends’ influence in how much children eat and, possibly, in their weight control.

Researcher Sarah-Jean Salvy, an assistant professor of pediatrics at the State University of New York, said it was not surprising that children eat more when they are with friends instead of strangers.

She told Reuters Health that the same pattern has been found in adults which can be partly explained by people being more self-conscious around strangers.

But this can also be partly explained as friends act as “permission-givers.” “They set the norm for what is appropriate to do, or in this case eat,” said Salvy.

For the study, Salvy and her colleagues had 23 overweight and 42 normal-weight children and teens spend 45 minutes with either a friend or an unfamiliar peer.

Each pair was given games, puzzles and books for entertainment, along with bowls of chips, cookies, carrots and grapes.

Overall, the researchers found that pairs of friends downed more calories than did unacquainted pairs and overweight friends consumed the most — 738 calories, on average, versus 444 calories when an overweight child was paired with normal-weight friend.

Normal-weight kids consumed an average of about 500 calories when paired with a friend, regardless of the friend’s weight. Salvy said a recent study of adults found that people were more likely to gain weight over three decades if their same-sex friends were overweight or obese, suggesting a role for “social influence” in body weight.

When it comes to children and teens, it’s known that many follow their friends’ lead in deciding whether to smoke or drink.

Salvy said the current findings suggest that children’ eating habits are also “largely determined by their social network.”

The good side of that, according to Salvy, is that helping one child make healthy changes may end up influencing his or her friends as well.

(Reporting by Amy Norton of Reuters Health, Editing by Belinda Goldsmith)

Hey all!

I know some of you post, some of you are lurking in the side lines, you dont have to do that, you are welcome to be here as much as everybody else but if you prefer to sit and watch this is cool too. I just want to know your star signs.

I am interested to find out if they are in fact true or just a load of bull!!

I am a Virgo! Here is my starsign fresh from Heat Magazine this today!

Charm, not talent, should get you places soon. This might be a godsend for HEIDI PRATT, but for some it could feel like a complete cop-out. You could, of course, earnestly grimace your way through important inquisitions…. just don’t blame this stargazer if someone less sincere gets your gig.

Hummmmmm interesting! Well, I will take each day as it comes I think and just see what happens and get through it using BOTH my talent and Charm!

Whats your sign? Tell me and I will post your horoscope for you xx

TS