Being Pregnant is tough with an ED

So, I dont know how many of you have heard before now but I am pregnant! Believe me when I found out I was so shocked, I was under the impression that I couldnt actually have children due to not being able to carry to term in the past and having health problems too, however it seems that I have been given another chance to prove myself.
When I first found out that I was pregnant I was very shocked, I was driving down a motorway at the time the doctors confirmed that I was expecting. I tried getting hold of my partner and my friends but of course it was too early so a lot of people were still asleep. My friends took the news really well and so did my other half after getting over his initial shock of the news. I was happy of course that this was the outcome and that I had another chance at being a mother. However I was concerned, I was and still am scared that something would happen to my baby and that it would be my fault. Eating of course came as an issue originally, I was still eating three small meals a day but when I say small I mean small! This was not enough to sustain myself and my baby. But strangely once it all clicked into my head that I was carrying a child it all got a bit easier! My meal sizes increased gradually, not that it would be classed as normal size but each meal managed to get a little bigger and I worked my way up to be eating on average two meals a day, but these were the closest to a normal size meal that I ever got close to. And when I went to see the midwife she checked me and the baby out and said that we were doing well and the baby was healthy! it was the most amazing news I have ever heard! That was my 12 week check up and I am now 27 weeks pregnant, baby is still healthy and my meals are going strong providing all nutrients my baby needs.

A message to all pregnant ED sufferers out there: yes it is hard to do what you need to in order to provide a healthy body for your baby but as long as you keep in mind that in the end you will have someone who will love you unconditionally forever and who you can love in return, it will get you through.. love is a powerful thing and in my experience it was lack of love that put me in the dark place where ED found me in the first place.

Lots of love

TS xxx

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~ by twistsis on June 5, 2011.