OPEN FORUM HERE!!

Ok, so it seems that mamaVISION has either chosen to take out her open forum or it has simply been mislayed somewhere! Not sure, however not that bothered now. I emailed to let her know that it had gone and asked where it was, but got nothing back. Not really a shock to be honest with you!!

Speaking of honest….. just to let you all know… Im pregnant! Just found out and im happy about it so thats good right?!

I am glad to see you all here and the open forum is still here for anyone who wishes to use it, feel free to be honest and speak your mind, just like I do!!

love you all

TS xx

TS is BACK!!

Hey all!

 

I am back!

 

Ive been thinking alot since I left about this blog and about mamavision too.

I felt guilty when I first left TS and MV, feeling like I was leaving people or letting people down.  That feeling did not go, I still feel like I should have stayed but now I know different things and understand stuff alot better and it seems that I am also finding out new things about people that I thought I was close to, thought were my friends. Well Guess what?? Not everyone is who they say they are, no matter how open you think they are being or how helpful you think they are. I have learnt a huge lesson while I was taking a break from the blog, and I will not let anyone else find out the hard way of what can happen when you trust someone so much online and you think everything is going to be fine. 

 

Now I am back and I have new things I want to say and believe me, I will not hold back, I still maintain that this is my blog and I will say what I want on it and I will be honest with you all and myself with what I say. Some things WILL be harsh, some things will also be quite hard to read but I am not hiding all this anymore, people need to know the reality of what is actually going on!

 

The bitch is back, and my bite is worse than ever! You know I am talking to you, and you know I am going to expose you for who you are!!! I will not put pictures and I will not mention things that are personal but I will be telling everyone what they can expect if they follow that path of yours!!!!

 

 

On another note: I miss you all, I want to know what is going on with you all xx

THings are SHIT!!

I thought everything was going ok, I thought it would all sort itself out and things would get better for me but no, when I take 1 step forward I then take ten steps back again.
I feel like crap, I look like shit and I have lost two people in my life since February!! So all in all everything is now going down the pan and I have no idea how to stop it or now find the energy to trust people who were not in my life before who now want to be.

Apart from that everything is ok and the company is now up and running.

TS

This is TS.

Hi guys,

 

I thought I would check in and see how you are all doing?

 

I am alright, I mean I completed and passed my NVQ which is good, my eating is slipping and sliding in every direction which is slightly offputting as I thought I was doing quite well. However, I have now met someone who is being amazing. Although he doesn’t fully know my whole story yet, he is being a great help just by being there and accepting me for me. No bull shit, just me. And he makes me laugh which for me is a big deal as its hard to remember to laugh.

 

soooo what is new with everyone on here? I hope you are all ok, love you and miss you all

 

TS

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Comparing.

Hey guys, So… Heres my thought for the day-
Why do we compare ourselves to others?

I do it, My friends do it, Im sure you all do too.

But, anyways- I was at something last night. And there was someone there. & all I could think about was, “Oh my gosh, shes really skinny.” And after that thought my thoughts just got darker and darker.

& as much as I hated it. & knew I shouldnt be thinking like that & that it would trigger bad things, I just couldnt stop.

Luckily for me, I had some wonderful people get me through last nights hell. And that person made some very good points to me.
1.Who cares if shes skinny.
2.He would like her even if she wasnt.
3.Im more important than her, and I love you. So whats it matter.

And you know what, Those are soo true. If you have people in your life, that are wayyy more important than who your comparing yourself to, then why let it bother you? Why even contemplate the idea of comparison?

Anyways- Do any of you do that? What do you find that helps you block out those thoughts? And those of you that dont do it, whats your secret?

Wait wait wait, you know, after typing “whats your secret?” I just realized the answer to that. Being comfortable and happy with YOU! Haha, but thats just logically thinking. Maybe I can take some steps towards that today. & the rest of you can too. Whats it going to hurt?

Take care, stay strong, and keep fighting.
If not for yourself, for that “important person” you have in your life.
-Auntweirdo

Here goes nothing.

Hi everyone.
I hope your all doing well.

I will be doing some posts for a bit. & For now I will sign with *auntweirdo*. haha. As appointed by TS.

A little about me- Im in Highschool. I have an eatingdisorder. & I am intersted in a lot of things. So.. all of my posts may not be related to ed things…

I would love to hear from all of you. & Im here for all of you in any way possible.

I’ll do another post when I have more to say soon.
Take care, Keep fighting, & stay strong.
-Auntweirdo.

Im standing down from twistedSISTER

Hi everyone,

I wanted to let you all know that I am standing down as twistedSISTER. I dont know how long I will be gone for, I dont know if I will be back. But the site will remain open and various others will be posting instead. All people posting will automatically appear as TS, although it is at their discretion if they choose to reveal who they are.

I am standing down at the moment because I cant deal with everything at the moment and I dont know what to do aboutit. And I think I need a break from this and everything else in my life. I just want everything to stop for a little, stop so I can catch up. But I dont know if that will ever be possible.

Ill pop in from time to time and I will let you know when it is me posting. I love you all and Iwill stil have access to all emails if you want to email me xxx

love you all always I hope that you all find your way out of the hell.

yours always

twistedSISTER

The one time I need someone, is when they are not around!

I am having a bad couple of days, and now I am hurting myself and I cant stop! I want to but I cant, I am feeling new degrees of anger and sadness that I haven’t felt for a while and its killing me!!!

A little girl forever

Terrified of growing up, the woman aged 23 whose extreme diet has left her with the body of a frail 12-year-old.
By Alison Smith-Squire,

Like a female Peter Pan, this 23 year old woman is so terrified of ageing she has chosen not to grow up.

Vikki Hensley has frozen her body in of to that of a 12 year old girl through extreme dieting.
As the science graduate became anorexic before she hit puberty, she has never had a period, needed to wear a bra or had a proper boyfriend.
To stop herself growing “older” she sticks to a diet of less than 1000 calories a day – a regime that has stunted her height to 5ft 2in and keeps her weight at 5 and a half stones.
The dieting has come terrifyingly close to costing Miss Hensley her life.
But she insists she has a strange feeling of pride about her looks – and has no plans to change her lifestyle.
Miss Hensley, from East Croydon in Surrey, began to starve herself at the age of 12 when she was bullied for being a swot.
“I found if I looked younger and took on a more fragile appearance it frightened off the bullies,” said Miss Hensley, the daughter of an optician and a legal secretary.
“Even the teachers warmed to my vulnerable child-like appearance, treating me more sympathetically and giving me more attention. No I cant imagina what it would be like to be a curvy woman,” At the age of 17, however, her weight dropped alarminly to only 4st 4lb. “Doctors told my shocked parents that I was so ill, I could die of heart failure,” she said.
“So doctors force-fed me with a tube down my nose, which saved my life.”
Since then she has managed to control what she eats to keep her weight at a constant 5st 7lb. “I dont eat at regular times. Instead I nibble throughout the day on bags of raw vegetables, cooked suede, tiny portions of tuna, occasionally eating a square of chocolate,” she said. “I wanted to achieve my dream of going to university and knew I had to be well enough to study.”
Against all odds, she has gained ten GCSEs, all As or A*s, four A Levels and a first class degree in biomedical science from Kings College London.
She now intends to study for a PhD, her ambition being to find ways of curing cancer.
But doctors have warned her that if she continues her extreme diet she could seriously harm her liver and kidneys. She may have also damaged her fertility. Yet she is still not ready to become a woman.
“Looking younger and having a childs body does give me an odd buzz and sense of achievement,” she said. “Also, while I have never had a proper boyfriend or even felt sexy, I wouldnt want to develop curves because I wouldn’t feel comfortable attracting men’s sttention.” Her parents have “begged and cajoled” her to eat more, she said, but to no avail.
Miss Hensley added: “While in some ways I long to break out of the bubble I’ve created for myself and be like any other 23 year old woman, I am also terrified of taking that step.”
Experts warn more and more young women are controlling their weight to a dangerous extent.
Deanne Jade, a psychologist at the National Centre for Eating Disorders, said “Women, particularly young women are these days under such pressures to have the perfect body that we are seeing a new trend” to be continued……

This is who I am! Watch Video if you want to know

This is me, the blonde drunk girl in the video, this is me, and I am like this alot! lol

 

Thought it might make people laugh at the same time as making a fool of myself as you watch who I am! lemme know what ya think xxxx

 

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=oMdbgxY012g